dun think i have a lot to post today, caz practically nth happened caz i lead a screwed life , thus so screwed that nothing happens in my screwed up life.. after sch, went to emo in class, then when there was no one left, i decided to go home, met sister at the bus stop and crapped with her... HAHA, i was crapping to her about potato (: then at home, more stoning and emoing, trying to chiong work. so much to be done, yet so little time to complete. letting go does not mean giving up, it means but accepting that there are things not meant to be the way you want it to be and face reality... izzit hard to find what you want? forcing a smile everyday, blinking away the tears. i should try to stay strong and have no fears, but i find it hard not to cry and im breaking down... i sorry if i am giving up too easy. my strength have been drained and no more is left to fight back. everything is wrong with this screwed up world. no one showing how they really feel, holding everything inside. happy no emotion, sad no emotion, angry no emotion. that is actually the worst feeling in the world, looking down onto the floor, and no one noticed how blue the sky is... im barely breathing through all this stress, cant find the air to survive... you might not see me cry, you might not see me fall, you might not see me hide, and u might not see me scream. but everything i do is because of you. rt 2moro, hope thousands of pumpings come towards us so we suffer as a squad, do everything as one, at least that will keep my mind of this stress and not think of you. let the std 2s 10 squad show our new batch of instructors our full strength. JIAYOU, WE CAN DO IT, JNCO!! TOGETHER WE SHINE AS ONE JNCO SQUAD (: STD 2s 10 FOREVER AS ONE!!

- i noe ranting here is no use anymore, but no one bothers to listen to me in reality....what can I do?