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Tuesday, August 24, 2010

i should stop repeating myself to you... being depressed for the same thing each night is getting frustrating... is not that i dun want it... its just that i cant stop thinking of it, its hard and difficult for me to cross my boundaries now, i just dont have to courage to do so... i need some guidance, some scolding and maybe even a slap to wake me up... i'm just scared to take the 1st step... im just afraid to do such a life-changing experience... i dunno wad to do, im unsure... you should slap me... i need your guidance to get me out of this dark past i never want to step into again. its going to be hard for me to take such a big step out of my usual zone... im going to try my best, taking all scoldings if possible, trying not to breakdown, which i think i will... im hindering this whole process, i should not even go... but what is pulling me thr? you? the passion for it i guess... i want to try to learn it to the best of my abilities, but its hard, im trying my best, but i just cant seem to absorb... wad to do? nth but emo i guess... dreams get shattered so easily, its just take a pin to drop on the glass to break it.. my heart is more fragile than tt.. i want to excel, but i just cannot... fear is pulling me back, im pulling myself back, constraining myself from reaching a dream... i'm just afraid to believe in myself and to do much more... im scared... help me pull through this stressful time... or maybe just let it go and dun care about it anymore... no one cares anw... so why bother trying? no one takes notice, no one even think the existence of it makes any difference in their lifes and maybe even better off without it... i dunno.. im too afraid to trust that im trying my best... thinking of it makes me want to cry really badly...

DAY 16- someone not in your state/country..

errr... the other half my family? LOL, missing u guys a lot :D communicate through phone ok (: hope u ppl are doing fine :D haha (: enjoy urself, i will go back and visit u ppl soon? idk.. HAHA :D

- missing you is an important part of life...

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Does my name matter anymore?
if you really want to know, Diane Lim
or indiane or sk2 or die-any
08 JAN 96
~~SACPS~~ DHS 2ECRU`10
3 EXPLOSIVE ELF
[D]HSJAB STANDARD THREES`11
[D]ACTYL
i just dont have the confidence to tell you i love you...
i want to say so much to you i guess, but nothing seems to be coming out...

Things i want to accomplish

2950 pumpings
do my best for jnco
try to be more confident...(whats the point?)
~~3.6 for eoys, at least triple science~~
~~dactyl chalet (screw or good)~~ well, i have my own viewpoints...
~~Accomplish my dreams~~ didnt happen, never would
Stop emoing and Enjoy life (:

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If I die today, please remember me as yesterday…
I will jump off the cliff;
I will die;
I will be shattered into pieces...
But once I die, my memories will be resurrected;
They will merge to form the story of my life.

I never could`ve seen this far
I never could`ve seen this coming
It seems like my world`s falling apart, Yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don`t think that I can deal with the things you said
It just won`t go away

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, Yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can`t let go
I just can`t find my way, Yeah
Without you I just can`t find my way

I don`t know what I should do now
I don`t know where I should go
I`m still here waiting for you
I`m lost when you`re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can`t let you go
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