Tuesday, August 17, 2010
haiz... life srsly suxs lar, because now i feel very weak and i dunno wad to do... i srsly feel screwed and although you could unscrew it, i just feel screwed up again... sorry for getting so many tootness out and like saying so much irrelevant stuff, think i got you really freaked out ._. SORRY T.T i just cant help it, i think im getting you into a lot of troubles, pain and suffering. i cant control myself, theres no point of doing so, its just too strong. i cannot carry on like this, its ruining my life,tearing it down piece by piece, i just feel very empty today, like something is missing from my body and it cannot be found back again... its depressing, its saddening... i just feel like today i have no one to support on, no one to tell my worries to, no one to listen to me.... i know you will, yet i feel very scared and unsure of should i tell you or not.. its getting more and more difficult, its getting harder and harder. i cant keep up like this... i feel insecured, not as much as before. its not you, its just me i guess... how im losing confidence in myself, doing things i should not be doing, not believing in myself... i just cannot keep up like this... i cant bear to tell you, yet i can wait to burst out crying in front of you... its mixed, its complicated, i just dun think 2day is a good day, its a f-ing day. i dunno why, i just feel that there is no way or anything that make this day a better one, its gonna sux and i have to bear with iit. its seems as though she does not want to carry on anymore, it seems as though she does not care anymore... everyone says 'it seems as though', but i srsly dun care so im holding onto my hopes high and hope for a miracle to happen, i feel strengthless, no one to rant to, no one i feel i can trust anymore... maybe its just 2day, i try to get over it, maybe if you slapped me, it would work.... my emotions are just like glass. its better to leave them broken than to try to put the pieces together... but i want to take the risk and piece them together, no matter how painful it gets.
DAY 8- Your favourite internet friend..
errr? internet friend means wad siol -.-, ok im thinking of one of my internet friends, dunno if this is counted, but i shall just write it... HAHA (:
Dear -i dont noe if you are considered as an internet friend-
Thanks for always being online with me, crapping with me and lifting up my spirits when im down. Thanks for playing games with me online, no matter who stupid the game is or how childish it is, you would always never fail to disappoint me. i hope when you read this, you will know its you so this is how much an internet friend is to me lar, since im always online and sometimes i just fell lonely, having no one to talk to, you would always entertain me. Sometimes when you are not online, i get worried, where are you? Are you okay? Why arent you online? Maybe its just because that you have impacted my life so much that i feel uneasy when you just dont come online, dao me, or stone for a long period of time not talking... i dunno... this is how important buddies are important to me lar... so my great internet friend, dun dao me lar T.T i get depressed, my whole heart sinks....
-why so stone today T.T im getting scared and afraid
