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Cause I don't give a damn anymore
Wednesday, September 8, 2010

LOL, 2day was epic i guess...went for muggin session with Yifei at macs, then went to sch for some reason, u stalker ar? shall not tell u (: the thing i did in school was quite epic, actually super epic, with fire extinguishers and FOAM!! haha :D nvm about tt, then went home? had "jnco activation" tonight ( ps, maybe only yifei, sgt jc and sgt oh will know wad this means.. inside joke :D ) quite stupid.. so yea.. managed to finish 2 essays during muggin and trying to chiong the rest now.. want to mug more... no time... argh this world...

Sometimes i just feel that no one gives a damn about this world anymore... so why should i? im stuck in my own fantasy, not wanting to face reality...its harsh and i dun want to face it again... i just made a very big decision in my life and it would affect me for a whole year... i dunno if its the correct one, but i hope so, if not, i will have to painfully suffer through all the pain and suffering if i get chosen.. so yea... at least im with squadmates and you are also in it :D one good point lor... this boosts me to go further in this and sometimes make me think how life would srsly sux with your existence.. maybe you dont feel it, but my heart was smashed 2day for a while... i have this feeling, i wanted to tell you everything, yet i didnt want to tell you, yet i was scared that smth would happen, i was afraid that it would be too much to ask... for you to comfort me, for you to listen to my problems.. you have better things to do, i dont want to hold you back, im sry... and i just think that this is not working out properly... we are slowly going apart,,, i hate that feeling, it feels that i have lost the other half of me, empty and sad... i hope ur reading this... but i think no one gives a damn about me anymore... everyone hates me i guess... i cant do much... life is just like this... hoping i ca go through thick and thin with you, but its fading away... it seems like you're avoiding me or maybe its not on purpose.. i dunno... i cannot live without you, pls let me feel that care and warmth again... i srsly cannot carry on...

DAY 30- your reflection in the mirror
all is see is the past, the used to be so smiling and never give up person in the mirror, i want to return to that past... i want to be what i see in the mirror, the past, what i used to be, not knowing the meaning of emo, not knowing how to emo and only knowing how to smile... sometimes i just cant do that, wishing that i can revert back into time and become five and maybe restraining myself from knowing how to emo, that would be good and wad i see in the mirror would be so different, it would be wad i want to see and maybe not an emo kia crying in front, with slashes and guilt, not knowing wad to do, clueless and sad, well thats wad i hope.... but can it come true? obv not, im not living in lala land...
- love is such a strong word, but yet so appropriate now








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i just dont have the confidence to tell you i love you...
i want to say so much to you i guess, but nothing seems to be coming out...


Things i want to accomplish

2950 pumpings
do my best for jnco
try to be more confident...(whats the point?)
3.6 for eoys, at least triple science
dactyl chalet (screw or good) well, i have my own viewpoints...
Accomplish my dreams didnt happen, never would
Stop emoing and Enjoy life (:

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If I die today, please remember me as yesterday…
I will jump off the cliff;
I will die;
I will be shattered into pieces...
But once I die, my memories will be resurrected;
They will merge to form the story of my life.

I never could`ve seen this far
I never could`ve seen this coming
It seems like my world`s falling apart, Yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don`t think that I can deal with the things you said
It just won`t go away

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, Yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can`t let go
I just can`t find my way, Yeah
Without you I just can`t find my way

I don`t know what I should do now
I don`t know where I should go
I`m still here waiting for you
I`m lost when you`re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can`t let you go
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