Saturday, October 16, 2010
felt like my heart just broke, well yup its just broke in a split second i guess... that one word can just shatter my whole heart... get well ok ._. dun so kan chiong lar... haiyo :/ liddat one, dunno how take care! hiff... why liddat one -.-, now im worried about it, now im thinking wad might happen... shit i sound very serious... shit, im dan jing xiao guai-ing... forget it... its happened and nothing can change that fact so wad to do? dunno D: my heart already broke and my mind cant think straight...
faster go lerh >.< > stop breaking my heart D: one minute u tuo, my heart deteriorates more deeper down and the damage is a lot and i also dunno why -.- 2day was slacking shit day and nth much happened, trying to make ecru vid as inspired by trevor.. thks trevor :D ok stalked for class pics for like one hour already, guess i can officially start to piece everything up at 12am... screw man, doubt the class will care anw -.- that why i should not too... great, i officially dont care. pon class chalet lor, great... my heart just became a small dried up prune caz shes still awake... first it broke, then it shattered and now its dried up, with no heartbeat and just hanging there to survive through this tough night... get well, go sleep!
i realised this, it hurts to live... and once again everything is piling up, i did nth for dactyl or squad today, feeling damn zibei now.. and the burden is coming back... its the end of eoys, why must you come back to me? i srsly no need this type of epic to be inflicted on me, thank you very much, i can live perfectly without it... although i learnt not to rant about anything, i have also learnt to not go high... caz it would just bring back memories, good or bad, it would cause tears to flow... not water tap, but just tears... they dont want to leave you, yet you dont want them to come...
You held my heart, you took care of it, kept it safe beside yours. then after a while, u decided to tear it apart, piece by piece, you destroyed my heart, left it with little life, no longer beating... maybe it was because i couldnt get you to love me, so i killed myself in such a crude way... sometimes i *** you but you dont exactly care, so need i say anymore? im drowned in thoughts now, lost for words and speechless as i look at you... the tears that flow down your cheek that very moment soaked my heart, making it heavy... A touch can convey so much, i felt happy inside nevertheless scared what might happen after that... Will those words of yours pass the test of time? Was it real or just like a passing cloud? With so many questions in the inside, yet agitating me on the outside. Im taking a deep breath, taking one step closer and trying my best to show you what i can do, just for you, no one else but you, mugging here i come :D
You are the air i breathe in so deep, you are my dream when i fall asleep, cant go on without you here because losing you would be my greatest fear.... and sometimes when you talk, i would secretly tear... but its not what you say that make me cry, but its the things you didnt say that hurts the most... tears are like words from the heart that cant be spoken and sometimes just looking out to the vast sea, seeing no end would be like her heart, as vast as ever, and when you think shes looking out for you, shes isnt... but that does not matter to me anymore.. why bother emo... theres not point..
// might as well stab myself now....caz life is never the same without you...
