my life is srsly f-ed up... srsly screwed to the max... everything is encouraging me to become more emo... 1st was last night, when someone so happen ound out my 2nd dream... now she noes all 3 dreams... great -.- totally f-ing screwed... caz its never possible for me and maybe if no one knew about it i can just throw it away and pretend nothing happened, but now i have to do smth about it... f my life... so yea... another dream screwed up by something that totally crushed my second dream to like nothing... totally crushed to the max, after seeing smth, my whole heart sank like shit, and that dream crushed... totally poof into midair, like it never occured to me ever again. and therefore i shall not think of again and let my life go on... f-ing screwed... f-ing sad... thats the way it should go on.... anyway no one cares rite? no one, now no one cares.... everyone is just eoy eoy eoy eoy, ever heard of life? ever heard of what we used to have? happiness? joy? get a life, life is not all about grades... so if you hate ur life, at least let me enjoy mine... wtf.. screwed.. 2day was a bit the emo, a bit the epic... stayed back with angelina and wewnt home with jia rong and nic, epic ride back with the did you eat yr lunch yet? epic convo.... anw... sry for maybe it was caz smth i did yesterday that could have caused it ._. srsly sry... i didnt noe i was causing so much pain... so much suffering.. i reflected, i cried, i tried my best, now crying in front of the whole world doesnt seem much of a problem now... sry ._. i think i should stop doing this to you... maybe im the one causing you all the pain, all the suffering... i will reflect and stop it... i will try to stop this from happening again... pls tell me ._. or else, it would just worsen, dun bottle up ok, talk to someone (: i will be all ears for you, anytime anywhere, any place, i will always be supporting behind you and maybe i can be someone u can trust, or just lean against when i need :D dun liddat lerh ._., its just making me more depressed, making me cry... im sick of crying... and camping outside for 1hr plus did not seem to work... so yea ._. sry... so this is how screwed my life is i guess and im wasting my time again posting, but what to do? i found another place to destress and let everything out i guess... fmylife.com and blogger.com... thks.. sry, i cant tell you face to face, i feel that smth wrong will just happen and maybe this would be a better way... sry,i just dont have the courage to tell you how i feel, im just too scared of the outcome, im just too afriad of wad might happen... another emoing session can be during what now is something i actually dread i guess... dactyl chalet... i dread it now, but i want it to come, yet i hope it never comes and maybe i can die before it comes... but yea... we have to face reality... we have to strive to do our best in everything we do, but once i screw, i will be hated for life i guess, i would never be able to have a place to rant anymore... i would rather just die... i am someone who needs to screw up to learn, i need to fail to pass... so how? am i going to let everyone down again? am i going to make people sad and depressed again? no, not this time... i will try my best, i will put in my best effort, although my ideas are always shitty, but yea, i tried... this suxs lar, i dunno wad to do now... now 2nd dream crushed to bits... nothing left, never going to happen again... i dunno what to say for that, anw i would never achieve it, since i fail in life, so why pull everyone down with me? fearing chalet? not fearing it? i dunno, now my heart is in a mess, i need someone to rant to, but everyone is busy with eoy eoy eoy... stfu for once, cant u see im allergic to eoys? gl kia finally knows the true meaning of emo today, sry i let you down... sry...

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i just dont have the confidence to tell you i love you...
i want to say so much to you i guess, but nothing seems to be coming out...

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Accomplish my dreams didnt happen, never would
Stop emoing and Enjoy life (:

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I used to think that I was strong
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Without you I just can`t find my way

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