Friday, October 15, 2010
yup my life is now screwed, from now on, its eoeoys so i can afford to emo for the whole day, yup great life i have... screwed to the max and i dun have the feeling that eoys is over at all, totally no feeling and now i have to think of smth that something i dunno if i want it to come or not, caz now my life without your care is nothing, just an empty shell rolling around the road, no one picking me up, but myself... nobody gives a fcking damn about life now, everyone is now wow enjoy life, end of eoys... do they even get the real meaning of life, facebook? twitter? games? freedom? no way man... explaining to you would also be useless so whats the point...
2day srsly doesnt feel like eoeoys, although went to cycle at ecp with angelina... hahah super epic (Y), sry sgt jc for not playing mahjjong with you D: but yup, wtf -.- best man... but sometimes its good to let go, sometimes things were just not meant to be this way i guess...
f-ed up world, f-ed up place where humans should not stay alive. caz something somethings just breaks your heart and you dunno wad to do... crying never works now anymore.... it just make people stare at you so whats the fcking point... go away... sometimes i wish you never existed, so this would not happen to me, but then again, im enjoying emoing over you... i cry for the time that you were almost mine, i cry for the memories you live behind, i cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new. i cried for the times i thought i had you... when something's over. its over and it can never be started again. when its broken, you can never pull back the pieces. Like if not the way you want it to be and when you know someone's hurting you so much, just stop, but its hard to just let go..
sometimes life is just ironic i guess... the person that brings out the best in you and the one who makes you strong is actually your weakness and every night i would stare into the sky, talking to stars pretending that it was you. it also acts like you, so far away and never replying me... but in life all you can do is smile, move on, hold back the tears and pretend you are okay so no one will care about you... since no one gives a damn about life.
i was waiting for you, waiting for my whole life and under a flickering light, but at least that light will be fixed, unlike my heart. but sometimes fate just has a cruel way of putting things together. the feeling when the world collapses and the heart explodes, my heart bleeds no more, caz its stone. as i move, crash and burn, i feel nothing, caz i needed you to be there..
but this is just a chapter in my life, dun close the book, but just turn the page. i have learnt not to tell people my problems caz 80% of them do not give a fcking damn and the other 20% will be glad that you have them... and since the most dreaded thing is coming, i dont want it to come, and 2011 is also coming... go away, give me back the 14 years of my life that i want to enjoy... wtf, hate this, hate my life, shall just go emo with technology, maybe make a random dactyl vid again...
// why am i even afraid to lose you, when you were never with me? 我需要你回来
yup my life is now screwed, from now on, its eoeoys so i can afford to emo for the whole day, yup great life i have... screwed to the max and i dun have the feeling that eoys is over at all, totally no feeling and now i have to think of smth that something i dunno if i want it to come or not, caz now my life without your care is nothing, just an empty shell rolling around the road, no one picking me up, but myself... nobody gives a fcking damn about life now, everyone is now wow enjoy life, end of eoys... do they even get the real meaning of life, facebook? twitter? games? freedom? no way man... explaining to you would also be useless so whats the point...
