Friday, November 12, 2010
haha, i cant get sick of this picture (: chio and cool at the same thing... only picture that makes me smile now i guess, caz i remember the stuff that happened (: haha... but through all this, i fcuking pissed off now, so pls stop talking to me.... fcuk off man srsly, i dont need you to screw my life....but yup ctt over, havent blog much about ctt i guess... but yup it over... my journey ends here, so no worrying about that one, but yeah, just have to worry about training up for intra-comp i guess... omg cant wait for intra-comp, intra-comp i want be number 1 (: then will be super fun! yeah (: cant wait for intra-comp, although my journey as a comp team member ended, my journey as a sj member havent i guess... intra-comp here i come (: haha yup... everything ends here, but i have to know the difference between giving up and knowing when i have had enough of something, but i guess, i gave up too easily, or maybe i just dont want it because i find more benefits in the other opportunity... more training session with her, haha more emo, more guailan, and yup maybe i
could spend more time with her ._. at least i'll be noticed as a person, not left out i guess... you'll pay more attention to me ._. at least i wont be that speck of dust anymore... i guess, i just have to wait for you, that the best way now... but yeah... second chances doesn't always mean a happy ending, sometimes it just mean another shot to end thing right... you're all i want, you're all i need... i guess you're everything to me... and i just need strength rom you, or maybe just that jiayou from you to do well... and yup when you dao me.. i srsly dunno what to do, i srsly dont know how to live.. with just half a heart left...
i guess im just not fit to be with you, i guess im just not fit to be a comp team member. just drop everything that doesnt belong to you and move on i guess... move on to what's more achievable... and maybe my dream now is to be in intra-comp... to be able to lead dactyl... so yeah... give the spot to someone who wants it more than me i guess...caz yup just go there and be their number 0, and i'll learn too... i guess now to me... intra-comp team seems like a more appealing thing... maybe you should slap me... but yeah. i asked people... why be in comp team? is the response good? i dont think so... its just the fame, to be recognized... whats the point... i want to be in intra-comp... i want to command D:
but yup, sometimes, i guess not all this matter, the most important thing is to actually be recognized as a person.. and not a irritating speck of dust... i just want to be treated as a human i guess.. i know im trying my best to do something, i know im putting in my 101% effort in maybe also taking a time span of two weeks just to complete this task, but you guys just take it as trash? leech ideas, take it for granted and just treat it as nothing i guess.. so maybe after doing so much...i feel like theres no point in doing it again... caz you guys dont appreciate it.. you guys dont get what im doing... and i guess.. im just not that person you need... im just not that person suited for this world... i just that fcuked up person that no one cares about i guess... so yeah... i hope my new dream would come true, then at least i wont have to be pulling down everyone... i guess im just not fitted to be in a team. im just not fitted to be with people... i just that fcuked up speck of dust ruining everyone's life i guess... i'll leave, to somewhere very far away, at least far away from earth, maybe bringing you along, and just live my life that way, no regrets, no stress, no more discriminations, no more fcuked up people to ruin my life... ok super emo and pissed now. bye
// fuck of, i dont need people in my life... i just need you....
haha, i cant get sick of this picture (: chio and cool at the same thing... only picture that makes me smile now i guess, caz i remember the stuff that happened (: haha... but through all this, i fcuking pissed off now, so pls stop talking to me.... fcuk off man srsly, i dont need you to screw my life....but yup ctt over, havent blog much about ctt i guess... but yup it over... my journey ends here, so no worrying about that one, but yeah, just have to worry about training up for intra-comp i guess... omg cant wait for intra-comp, intra-comp i want be number 1 (: then will be super fun! yeah (: cant wait for intra-comp, although my journey as a comp team member ended, my journey as a sj member havent i guess... intra-comp here i come (: haha yup... everything ends here, but i have to know the difference between giving up and knowing when i have had enough of something, but i guess, i gave up too easily, or maybe i just dont want it because i find more benefits in the other opportunity... more training session with her, haha more emo, more guailan, and yup maybe i could spend more time with her ._. at least i'll be noticed as a person, not left out i guess... you'll pay more attention to me ._. at least i wont be that speck of dust anymore... i guess, i just have to wait for you, that the best way now... but yeah... second chances doesn't always mean a happy ending, sometimes it just mean another shot to end thing right... you're all i want, you're all i need... i guess you're everything to me... and i just need strength rom you, or maybe just that jiayou from you to do well... and yup when you dao me.. i srsly dunno what to do, i srsly dont know how to live.. with just half a heart left... 
