are you even worth it ):

Friday, November 5, 2010

lets see... headache, block nose, flu, sore throat, coughing, no appetite, damn weak, not yet fever.... and dactyl chalet in 2 days? wtf, fcuk man... what if i dont get well by then D: sian-ness... srsly fml... FML... and yeah, this suxs man D:, i dont even feel like i got strength to type... shit this... so yeah very fail 'squad' outing 2day... went to ermmm, trevor's house, played cards and stuff like BLUFF, LOL, and then went to kfc for lunch then to erm, klp to stone~ then took circle line one whole loop for fun then went back and spam comp... quite fail squad outing you can say, caz everytime its only the usual few, its only 6 of us... pathetic -.-, but yeah, epic and fun (:

even if i knew what to say to you, its just too late to make you stay... you might ask, was it hard to let go? i would reply, not as hard as holding on to something not real and maybe not even belonging to you i guess... sometimes our vision only clears after it is washed by tears... mine was washed today i guess... like so, you can close your eyes to things you dont want to see, but your heart can never be closed for the feelings that you dont want to feel... and that sucks... and maybe you dont know... when i text you, i miss you, but when i dont text you, im waiting for you to miss me... but you dont give a damn anymore... you hate me now... but life without you is like a broken pencil... pointless D: i need you back to support me, but i guess someone else have taken that place... im jealous of them i guess, and sometimes i wished i could bend time back to about one year i guess... and take their places again, and treasure that moment i guess... caz i missed that feeling of being loved.... the feeling of not being daoed i guess... just hope i could fall asleep and never wake up because nothing in this world could replace what you have taken away from me... i need you... but you dont care, so im lost in this world, falling down and never able to stand up caz im weak and i need help, but you dont care.... not anymore... this just stops i guess, i'll just emo, i'll just stop it, its not worth it anymore, caz all i get back is scoldings and daos, caz you dont want to care anymore... and yup, i guessed it, another fcuked up thing, coming out fcuked up things...the same kind i guess, not bothered and not cared... im trying not to become, i shall stop daoing... now i know how it feels, sry.... i learnt... sry.... i guess this is all my fcuked up mindset and attitude... always my fault i guess.... now already regretting my past and even the day before before... should have done it, but i was too scared at that time... i made a mistake o my lifetime... what to do, i will emo, esp during dactyl chalet, yes i will emo... now back to trying to breathe properly through my nose -.- bye

//i miss you dearly... and i finally realised the real meaning of absence makes the heart grow fonder.... do you enjoy seeing me suffer like this? dont lerh D: im in pain....

Why bother?

If you hate this blog, just click here^^

Does my name matter anymore?
if you really want to know, Diane Lim
or indiane or sk2 or die-any
08 JAN 96
~~SACPS~~ DHS 2ECRU`10
3 EXPLOSIVE ELF
[D]HSJAB STANDARD THREES`11
[D]ACTYL
i just dont have the confidence to tell you i love you...
i want to say so much to you i guess, but nothing seems to be coming out...

Things i want to accomplish

2950 pumpings
do my best for jnco
try to be more confident...(whats the point?)
~~3.6 for eoys, at least triple science~~
~~dactyl chalet (screw or good)~~ well, i have my own viewpoints...
~~Accomplish my dreams~~ didnt happen, never would
Stop emoing and Enjoy life (:

wow, u actually bother to tag ._.

ShoutMix chat widget

leaving so soon? i know u hate me

DACTYL
Cheryl
Yifei
Clarissa
STD 2s 10
2ECRU 10
6EP 08
DHSJAB
Mavis
Nicholas
Angelina
Nicholas
Trevor
Jia Rong
DJ
Link

stalker or stalker?

screwed up

If I die today, please remember me as yesterday…
I will jump off the cliff;
I will die;
I will be shattered into pieces...
But once I die, my memories will be resurrected;
They will merge to form the story of my life.

I never could`ve seen this far
I never could`ve seen this coming
It seems like my world`s falling apart, Yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don`t think that I can deal with the things you said
It just won`t go away

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, Yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can`t let go
I just can`t find my way, Yeah
Without you I just can`t find my way

I don`t know what I should do now
I don`t know where I should go
I`m still here waiting for you
I`m lost when you`re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can`t let you go
Copyright © 2010

Credits

Designer: T.Dream/SherZx
Images: Photobucket Basecodes: !ferrisWHEEL.¬≤.‚ô•