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Monday, November 1, 2010

omg, the pic sure chio rite (: dactyl 2009! CHIO :D LOL... ok erm after that 1.64k word post at the other side, and since i got nothing sj to rant about, no post there... so yup missed yesterday by 30mins =.= screw, but yup not going to post 2moro anywhere caz going to class chalet (: spam mahjong! HAHA... maybe post, if got wireless there lor (:...whee~~ but yup through these 'happy' times spent there are always very emo meanings behind these...

life is not how you want it to be... the person you wish to be with you forever also cannot be always thr 24/7, but i have to stay strong... i thought you didnt care, but yup im not sure if it was a forced thing, but you do care, i didnt want to communicate caz i was scared that you didnt like this, but im not sure if that is the case now, but each night i put my head to my pillow, i feel it wet, i cry and i try to tell myself that im strong caz i have gone one more day without you and maybe i can do it for another day, but yet the tears still flow, and it keeps on flowing... my heart would break but i'll get through...someday... when i stop loving you, but when... im hoping never... i hope my heart would shatter into pieces but i still love you... have been trying to force a smile for these few days.. but yeah, you're the only reason for me to smile... caz now everything is piling up on me and i srsly dunno what to do, dactyl stuff, jnco stuff, moi, squad stuff, holiday hw... wtf... i shall chiong out moi during class chalet if i can... and its sad when something you know... becomes something you knew, that would mean another smile forced out, just to let people think you are okay... caz im not the person you think i am, the person who never gets angry, never get pissed, never feel sad, have no emotions or sometimes, blur... diane lim is just not that, shes more complicated ok... i've been hiding the true me from everyone i guess... but it have been working for 14 years, so why try to change? but maybe i can look at things at a positive side? dont cry over something that is over, why not smile over it caz it happened? but sometimes it is good to have a good cry, wash my heart caz if i keep it inside, it would jsut tear me apart...

nothing hurts more than realising that she means everything to you but then you mean nothing to her... guess thats how i feel now... caz maybe she dont know.... but yup, countless hearts have broken caz of thing, tears have been shed for this, but does she care? fu yan only.... but yeah moving on is simple, what is left behind, makes it difficult. the truth is, a long time ago, i gave my heart to you but you never returned it... so yeah >.<> i feel helpless... but nothing can be done i guess... so yup, back to starting to mug for ct 2moro... its 1 and i havent started... screw this...

妳說妳不怕分手
只有一點遺憾難過
情人節就要來了剩自己一個
其實愛對了人情人節每天都過

分手快樂　祝妳快樂
妳可以找到更好的
不想過冬　厭倦沉重
就飛去熱帶的島嶼游泳

//i just wished you were a mind-reader so you would know how i feel about you and maybe you would know how much i need you right now...

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Does my name matter anymore?
if you really want to know, Diane Lim
or indiane or sk2 or die-any
08 JAN 96
~~SACPS~~ DHS 2ECRU`10
3 EXPLOSIVE ELF
[D]HSJAB STANDARD THREES`11
[D]ACTYL
i just dont have the confidence to tell you i love you...
i want to say so much to you i guess, but nothing seems to be coming out...

Things i want to accomplish

2950 pumpings
do my best for jnco
try to be more confident...(whats the point?)
~~3.6 for eoys, at least triple science~~
~~dactyl chalet (screw or good)~~ well, i have my own viewpoints...
~~Accomplish my dreams~~ didnt happen, never would
Stop emoing and Enjoy life (:

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If I die today, please remember me as yesterday…
I will jump off the cliff;
I will die;
I will be shattered into pieces...
But once I die, my memories will be resurrected;
They will merge to form the story of my life.

I never could`ve seen this far
I never could`ve seen this coming
It seems like my world`s falling apart, Yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don`t think that I can deal with the things you said
It just won`t go away

I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through, Yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Cuz I can`t let go
I just can`t find my way, Yeah
Without you I just can`t find my way

I don`t know what I should do now
I don`t know where I should go
I`m still here waiting for you
I`m lost when you`re not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can`t let you go
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